my mom is so ill. and it really struck me today..all she does is put a smile on her face for me everyday..she gives me so much freedom...she lets me do whatever i want...drives me everywhere..she makes me so happy..while deep inside of her, she's in pain...and i don't even know the pain she's going through. it's hard. my dad's been going to church everyday for the past week after work at 11 pm in downtown just to pray for her. the amount of pills she takes is excessive. she can't even go to church cuz she's so sick. i can't even bear it. i just don't understand. i remember that night, 2 years ago.. that lead to this..she was driving me to my violin lesson all the way in north york...it was a gloomy night...i was cold and being stupid, i asked for my mother's jacket. and yeah..it had to happen..a truck comes smashing into my mom's window..and it just shatters..tiny pieces of glass all on my mom's skin. oh my goodness. how much has my mom done for me ? i can't even describe it in words...all that was done, was all for me. and now...she lies in bed helpless...i feel so angry but i know, and i trust that prayers can heal...
i guess i'm on my own now..
just be thankful.
and smile....
i believe that happiness is a great cure.
posted by lois @ 7:10 PM
